Tuesday, February 23, 2010

My Grandma

Good Morning,
All of you that read my Blog know that I choose to stay positive, and drama free. Unfortunately not everyone lives that way, and there is alot of crazy people that love to stir up trouble, and cant handle calm positive living, and the person I'm talking about is my mother... she is a full blown alcoholic that had a hysterectomy in her thirties, and has never had any hormone therapy...So you put that combination together, and that makes.....CRAZY.

The reason I'm talking about my mom today is I unfortunately have to deal with her daily now, because my grandma is dieing. My grandma wanted to be buried in Emmett Idaho in a plot that she payed for next to her family members, that were also buried there. She had planned to buy the casket but never got around to it. So my mom has been taking care of her for years, and how she took care of her was, them drinking together..So that is probably how she got Alzheimer's to begin with,and then one day my Grandma fell, and Broke her hip, and my mom had no choice, and put her in a nursing home and then a Alzheimer's home, and then my Grandma could no longer drink alcohol, and she started going down hill, and now she is on Hospice, and it could be any day.

So I had to call my sister yesterday, and tell her that our mom has spent all of grandmas money, she had a big inheritance, and left it with my mom, and now she has no money for a proper burial service...So my mom is going to cremate grandma, and put her in a earn until she can get her back to Emmett Idaho...So needless to say no matter how much I want to stay away from drama, and craziness... Sometimes we cant get away from it. So I am praying right now that my mom will change her mind, and let the family help, and have a funeral, and bury Grandma the way she wanted...She deserves it.

That is what is going on for me right now, so that is why I say Stay away from Drugs, and alcohol in access, because it screws your life up, and makes you crazy. I choose to stay sober, and live the best most Positive life I can...Even through all of the craziness my family dishes out.

Peace, and Love Always, Ursula

Monday, February 22, 2010

Living your greatest Life

Good Morning,
The sun is finally shining bright, and the tulip's are starting to bloom, and I have spring fever. I love everything about spring... it to me is a very happy time, everything starts to grow, and it seems like everyone seems happier... because we know Summer is almost here. We get are vitamin D naturally. This year there will be pool parties, and many boating, and camping trips. My kids as they get older they are becoming even more adventures, and very helpful getting everything we need ready, so it is not so much work for me. Are biggest issue is getting a larger vehicle to fit are kids since my fifteen yr old, is already six ft tall... My Jeep is getting to small for them, not enough leg room.

Spending quality time with my family is the greatest gift ever, being able to make my own hours, and work from home is the greatest life ever, being my own boss, and putting my family first. I believe this is why my family is so close, and why I'm still happily married after sixteen years, are love is stronger than ever, and we still act like newly weds...It is a great life, and My husband is still into me.

Make wonderful choices for yourself, and your family, and remember to eat well, and exercise daily by making these changes you can live your best life, and even when difficult things happen in your life, as I call it "Life is Lifing" It will not throw you off, because you will have a well balanced life, and remember god will not give you more than you can handle daily.

I get so excited when I think about the wonderful choices I have made shifting my life to meet my needs, and my family's needs, knowing that I get to take my kids to school, pick them up and keep that close relationship with them always, and they still want to be seen with me, and they still value my thoughts, and feelings.

Life is what you make it, and you can choose daily to live the best most positive life possible for yourself, and the people around you, you just get to choose daily, and remember live a healthy well balanced life, and don't be to busy taking care of everyone else, that you forget to take great care of yourself.

Peace, and Love Always, Ursula

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Grandma

Good Morning,
First of all, Thank you all... for your prayers, and reading my Blog. It helps me so much to be able to get my feelings out by writing whats in my heart, and hopefully by what I share, It will also help you. We are all here to grow, and learn together. One big family, and I thank you to all my followers here.

My daughter, and I went to see grandma last night, and I was told we need to go every night now since she is on Hospice, so I assumed she would be alone in her room, and we would have to sit with her In her room all night to keep her company, but that was not the case... thank God. She is living in a Alzheimer's retirement house so they eat dinner at 5:00pm, so she was in the dinning room being feed her dinner, so I get to feed her every night. She no longer, can walk or feed herself, she talks a little bit, and the words she remembers when she sees me is... I love you. So that is even better than remembering my name. She has her eyes closed most of the time. She gets really mad when the caretakers try to move her, she tells them to stop, and tryed to hit them, so I was able to call her grandma, and calm her down. After dinner there was a resident that is my Grandma roommate, and she laughs the whole time, she had us all laughing, so for my daughter, and I we are just going to enjoy the rest of the time we have together with Grandma.

She has care round the clock with callaway where she lives , and now with Hospice...So I am so very grateful for that. Yesterday the caregiver was asking me what kind of grandma she was, and I smiled while telling her how wonderful she was.My Grandma was a model, and always had a new Cadillac she drove, with a poodle, her last husband her third marriage she married a Italian railroad engineer Bill Caruso he was a whiskey drinker, and big time partier. Whenever I would go visit them he would get drunk pretend he was in the mafia, and tell me the same old stories over and over again, and then at the end every time I listened to him he would open up his wallet, and throw me $50.00...So I always loved going and visiting him, and then he would jump on his riding lawn mower, and visit the neighbors, and he shared money and food with them as well. My grandma drank as well, and they were very dysfunctional, but they always spoiled me with new clothes, eating out, and whatever I wanted when I visited.

My grandma was very kind, and loving, and my kids always called her GG...sweet. Unfortunately they didn't get alot of time with her like I did so they don't have all the great memories of all the crazy things they did. My grandpa died of cancer,and now grandma with Alzheimer's. If you have healthy parents, and grandparents cherish them for as long as you can, and make time to see them as much as possible. Older parents,and grandparents are so wise they can teach us alot.

Today I encourage you to call your parents grandparents, and tell them how much you love them, and cherish them till the end.... even if they are dysfunctional like my family.
Peace, and Love Always, Ursula

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Hard times

Good Morning,
Life is full of many challenges, and lessons, sometimes its so hard when your going through them but you will become stronger because of it. When you are going through trials, and tribulations in your life hold on to your faith to keep you strong. Sometimes doing the right thing is not always the easiest thing but you will reap the reward eventually. Being strong is not always easy.

We can take many turns in our life good, and the bad but its important to stay on the high road even in the storm. Sometimes you have to make decisions that are so difficult. that make you cry, and that make you so sad like having to deal with a loss in your family. It can be so painful...It is important to greeve, and allow yourself to feel your feelings.

WE just had to make the choice for my grandma to die with Hospice and although it is the right choice... it was a hard choice, now my mom, and I have to watch her die. My mom is going to be with her in the day, and I have the night shift. We know that she is going to be in a better place but in the meantime it will be difficult to watch her this way. Nobody wants to see someone they love in pain.

I'm asking for prayer for her.... that Gods will be done, and take her home so that she does not have to suffer anymore. She is 85 and has Alzheimer's now for 7 years, and her organs are failing because of all the meds she is on. Tonight I will start with her, and I pray for strength to get through everything I need to.

Peace,and Love always, Ursula

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Valentines Day

Good Morning,
the week of Love, as we approach Valentines Day this weekend...WE get to focus on Love.
Love is the answer to all problems, there is no problems if we focus on Love, that is what everyone either can have, or is seeking. I choose to focus on Love daily...Loving God,Loving myself, Loving my Spouse, family, and Friends.

We get to create Love everyday,and show Love everyday. Love comes from are Heart, and reflects out. You cant give something that you don't have for yourself first. Valentine's Day is just a great reminder of what we have, and a great time to focus on it even more, and if you are alone you get to reach out to others. How great it is to Love, and be Loved.

When you finally find the Love of your life hold on to it, and keep the Love strong in your relationship all year long. It takes work but it is so worth it. Cherish, and Love them always, and treat them like the King, and Queen they are. You can have a strong healthy connection all year long. How great it is to have a man or women to Love.

So on Sunday buy them something special, and put some heart filled words in a card, even though they know you Love them its still great to be reminded, as to why you fell in Love in the first place. You have to keep the Love strong, and Alive. it keeps your passion, and Love even stronger, don't assume they know how you feel you have to tell them, and show them daily. Please do not let a day go buy without telling your partner that ""You Love them"...over and over again it will change your life, and you will never have any regrets.

Hug your love of your life today, and live the greatest life you can, with them daily.
Peace, and Love Always, Ursula

Monday, February 8, 2010

Super Bowl

Good Morning,
I hope everyone had a great time yesterday with your Super Bowl Party, and enjoyed all the food.
My family had a great time there was so much food. we will have leftovers for awhile...
I made to much. Last year there was no leftovers, in fact we ran out so this year I made more so that we would not run out. Teenage kids love to eat. I made double stuffed twice baked potatoes with cheese, and bacon,little Smokey's in the crock pot, with baby rays BBQ sauce,little BBQ slider hamburgers, Hot cheese for nachos, Big veggie tray with ranch,Doritos,and Deviled eggs....What a feast I am still full.

Whether your a sports fan or not its a great excuse to have a get together, and make all your kids favorite foods. My daughter and her friend loved helping me make the potatoes, and deviled eggs...So it was a great fun day, and the Saints ended up winning.

My kids will always associate are Super Bowl parties with the foods they love, and great Friends that they choose to invite. It is great to create fun times like that in your home, and then they always want to stay home, and party here with there friends, and then we don't have to worry about where they are, and what they are doing. I know there friends, and I know that they are safe.

Make your house fun for your teenagers so that they are not running the streets getting into trouble, we like having the house that the teens like coming to. As long as you have video games, and food, and pop they will all come over, and then you don't have to worry about them getting into trouble some where else. We try are best to make are house a happy safe place for people to be.

Create your family traditions so that your kids have things to look forward to, and create happy memories that will last a life time. You get to create happy times for your family, and ask them to tell you what foods they want, you ll be surprised at what they say they like. Have party's when ever you can... its a great way to bring people together for great communication, Great Food,Laughter... have potlucks so you can share different foods, and so that you can share the cost.

Peace, and Love Always, Ursula

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Loving yourself first.

Good Morning,
As we approach Valentines day, whether you are single or married, it gives you a wonderful feeling of Love, and if you are single, it makes you feel like you want to attract the perfect mate for you. Do you ever wonder why you attract the people you do in your life, and doesn't it seem like you keep on attracting the same type of person, they just look different. When I was single, in my teens, and early twenties, I use to attract the same type of man over, and over again. I was half of a person looking for a man to make me whole. So I always attracted very dysfunctional alcoholic men, because I was raised with alcoholic parents, and Grandparent's so that is all I knew.

Finally I got tired of the same kind of bad boy dysfunctional man, and decided in my early twenties, that if I was going to attract the perfect match for me, that I would have to do some work on myself, and become a whole person myself, and start to love myself just as I am. in order to attract a whole person, as well. So I became single, went through a personal effeteness training seminar, that was designed to take time out of your life, and work on yourself, and all of your issues. To find out why you do the things you do. Everybody has issues they need to work on before they get in a healthy relationship. Once I discovered that I did not love myself, and that was why I was attracting such dysfunctional people in my life, men that could never love me the way I deserve to be loved. You have to work on becoming whole yourself, and then and only then will you attract your perfect soul mate.

People will only treat you the way you allow them to treat you, so whether your single or marriage its never to late to attract your perfect soul mate, because it all starts with you, and the way you feel about yourself, and your level of confidence with in yourself. Treat people the way that you deserve to be treated, and look deep into there heart before choosing a mate for your life, because after all we are all searching for that perfect love, that we can call are own. If you are in a marriage that is not full of love, you do have the power to change that... it is never to late.

I am so very grateful for my husband... that shows me true love daily, and does everything for me and my kids. I get to celebrate a love that keeps on going sixteen years, and counting. Celebrate loving yourself first, and then watch, and wait to see what a difference that makes in your life, and if you are single... you wont be for long, it all starts with you. Happy Valentines Day.

Peace, and Love always, Ursula

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Life Lessons

Good Morning.
Today is a great day. WE can choose daily the best possible life for us.I love waking up everyday doing what I love,and spending time with my family... having open, and honest communications. Life has so many blessings, that we may not even notice if we are not in tune with are feelings, thoughts,and actions. Actions speak louder than words, sometimes. being present emotionally, and, spiritually, daily are so important. Learning to be, and allowing ourselves to be completely present at all times.

Sometimes life requires us to be still when we want to share things, but its important to listen to your heart first, before you share. We have to be careful to use positive words to influence the people in our life. It takes several positive words, to make up for one negative word. Choosing positive words over negative, and focusing on your own life, and not others is also so important. We can not change anyone else, we can only change ourselves, and what works for someone may not work for us. Choose the people in your life that enhance your life, and not take away. Be selective with the friends, and people you allow in your life. Like I always say" If you don't feel happier, and better after sharing time with friends that, you allow in your life than maybe your vibrations are not a match" You should not have to force a relationship, it should be natural, and if it is not a match don't be afraid to end it. Listen to your heart and you will always know.

Sometimes I can be to honest when I see there is a problem in someone Else's life, but its not my job to fix them, its there job to fix there own life. Be careful when it comes to other peoples life's and there feelings, only share what you have to, sometimes less is more in relationships. You have to realize in any relationship, they will disappoint you at least once, because none of us are perfect we will all fail each other from time to time, try living your life without false expectations of another person, even if our vibrations match there will be tension from time to time... That is just life. All you can do is try to be the best most honest, positive, happy person you can be, and when you fail from time to time, as we all will...Do not beat yourself up..Get over it, and move on.
people waste so much time dwelling on mistakes they make instead of taking them as life lessons, and moving on from them... So today, get over it, and make today the best day ever its not about them... its about you, and how you handle your Life. Trials will always come... we just get to not give them are attention, and focus. Because after all... what you get is what you focus on. Please don't waste your days focusing on what you cant change.
Peace, and love Always, Ursula

















Peace, and Love

Monday, February 1, 2010

Good morning,
Wow can you believe it is already February.
The months just seem to fly by. I love February. Valentines Day, and the Super Bowl....It is a great month. Love is in the air whether you are a big Holiday person, or a big sports fan... something for everyone. I just love to have a excuse to have a party, and bring friends together that's why I love the Superbowl. I love making lots of food, and spending it with my family, and close friends. It makes everything more enjoyable.

Life is so wonderful when you have people to share it with. We all deserve to have a full happy fulfilled life. We get to create it for our self. I believe that it all starts with us" treating people how we what to be treated."I Love my life and I get to share my joy of life everyday with my family, and friends. We get to create the life that works for us , and that is exciting to me that I get to create a life that is best for me, and my family. What works for me may not work for someone else. That is exciting, because I don't have to try and change for anyone else. I get to look deep inside, and discover my true Authentic self, and be that. If you try, and be someone other than your true Authentic self you will find out that you will never be happy. Be you 100%.

When I was in my twenty's I was trying to be everything for everyone else, and I feel that now that I'm older, I feel I have discovered that is is OK to be me, and I don't have to try, and change for anyone...How free is that. I just do me 100%, what you see is what you get. We can make this month fabulous, and every other month fabulous. its just as simple as a daily choice. I choose to live life to the fullest, discovering who I am, and what I like, and following the wisdom of that still small voice inside of me. Please don't change for anyone else be yourself...God made you great just as you are.

Peace and Love always, Make today a fabulous Day, Ursula